You loved Christmas. You had a sparkle in your eyes that time of year that just wasn't there during the rest of the year.
You played Christmas music around the clock and always spent more than you had to give a little cheer and hope to others. That was your way....always giving and thinking of others before yourself.
Generosity was your legacy.
Your generosity went deeper than your pocket...it seeped out of your soul and into the lives and hearts of others.
My sense of loss tonight is both palpable and all encompassing. It is both comforting to me and yet it tears me apart.
Lately I have realized I have forgotten what your laugh sounded like and I think I miss that most about you. Your laugh was infectious and could cure everything from a broken heart to a bad mood.
I glance in the corner of my eye and I see your picture and I can remember your joy when you held Sam in your arms all those years ago.
I always thought you were invincible. I wish to God I had been right.
This time of year I can look out my window at the bitter December cold and perched in a tree are the gentle cardinals you loved so much.
When I see them I like to think it is a part of you reminding me you are still here.
Still watching over me.
Still trying to comfort me from the other side of heaven and for just a moment it works.
I miss you so much Mama.
