What I have come up with is that I am immensely blessed beyond measure.
This path of mine, the one I have placed myself on, is not going to be an easy one to traverse given how deeply entrenched I have made myself in this pattern of self-loathing and numbness...but getting out of it is one thing I know I must do.
And there is a peace in that knowledge.
Today I did something big. HUGE.
Its something I should have done a very very long time ago.
For now I am going to stay on this path by myself for a ways. At some point I hope to blog more about it but for now I know this is something I have to do privately.
But, don't worry.
This path I am on is the right one and right now it only has enough room for two.
Its just enough for me and God.
And I am hopeful I will see a clearing on the horizon.
